Random thoughts…

I have been thinking a lot lately about writing.
I do not like writing. In case you didn't read that correctly, I DO NOT LIKE WRITING.
There. I wrote it.

Several times over the last few years I have thought about writing out my life story. Well, really starting with my earliest memories and working my way till now. I know this would take tons of time. I also know that I would have to go back and add stuff…all the time! I feel like I have a great memory until something that is so obvious cannot come to mind. I think of random things all the time and I know I'd need to go back and insert these thoughts into chronological order.

Now, you may be thinking: what is so special about your life that others would want to read about it? Well, that's just it. Nothing. There is absolutely nothing out of the ordinary special about my life. I just know I have had certain circumstances and situations that many could relate to. I mean, don't we all? I read Suzanne Beecher's "Muffins and Mayhem" a few years ago. I thoroughly enjoyed it but remember thinking at the end, there was nothing special about this, it was just one woman's honest story. I loved that it made me laugh and cry, even though she seemed to be like the mom next door when I was growing up. Nothing too special, just a fun lady sharing her story, and we all have one!

If I know myself I know I will not journal well. I am the most unorganized person I know. Really, I am. Did you see this picture of my bedside table? Enough said. But I do think I can write about my random thoughts here! Lately the biggest consumers of my thoughts are fitness, food, parenting and marriage, and postpartum; not in any particular order. Food - mainly because it is Fall, and postpartum because I have a three month old. If I told you all the thoughts that ran through my mind you would say I need help. And yes, I do, and I am in close contact with my Dr. We even text message! And I don't mean to sound too lighthearted about postpartum. It is no laughing matter, as I am realizing. I never knew how serious this was until after G was born. This is no joke.

So. Now that I've filled you in. Come along, and lets laugh and cry together!

Shock!

I still can't believe I have another baby. 

There are times when I think about how much our world has changed in the last year and my heart could just explode. I really do feel so blessed. 

Then, I see the news on TV about innocent lives taken. I see on Facebook my friend who is needing to have a hysterectomy and she hasn't had children yet. I read of my friend who has had several failed medical procedures trying to conceive their first child. 

The point is there will always be bad and evil, but there will also always be good and hope. I know that no matter what, there is always hope. And I am so glad that I know HIM. 

We thank god everyday for this new miracle. Although, he's three months old on Saturday so I'm not sure how long I can keep saying new! 

Fit Club

I have still been hosting our Fit Club on Saturday mornings. Today was especially difficult, as we did Turbo Fire and it is intense. When I start to get too uncomfortable I just take it down a bit. I love the few girls who come and the accountability it provides. 

In this pic I'm 30wks 5days! It's getting closer and closer! 

28 wks!

Moving right along. I had a growth scan yesterday and they measured baby at approximately 2.10lbs. Exciting to know he's right on schedule. 

I look like I have a basketball in my belly! The material from my shorts is bunched up and makes it look strange, but it's a perfect round ball! Weird! I'm still wondering how a 2.10lb baby inside equals a 25 lbs weight gain!!! Yikes! I know how it equals out, but I am definitely gonna try and eat better these next few months. For baby and me. 

27wks

Approximately 14.5 inches long!! Wow!!

Gideon

I've been thinking lately about baby #3 and this miracle inside of me.

I don't deserve this. None of us do. I have really struggled with this grace thing. I know there are so many who would and have given up so much to have their own children, yet for some reason God has said "no." I don't understand why he would choose to bless us with another baby, but I am so glad he did. I pray that this little boy would grow up to be a strong man who loves Jesus with all his heart. I also pray that Jason and I, as well as Grace and Marcus, will set the example by showing him how to do that.

Jason had a dream soon before I conceived that we had a baby boy and his name was Gideon. I love the name. I think it is so fitting, and Jason says we don't have a choice, that he really believes the dream was from God and that has to be his name. I am also working at a school several days a week and easy pronunciation and spelling are the number one requirements for me! HA!

I am now 26+ weeks and moving right along. Doc says eat and grow is all that needs to happen now. Well, he said don't eat too much, but yeah, that's hard but I'm trying to manage!

I'll post more pics soon!

25 weeks!

Belly is popping, for sure. And I definitely feel pregnant now! I'm loving it all and so grateful to be able to carry a baby. I'm excited about August!